My anxiety is so bad lately. I have attacks at least 2x a day. It's so hard to handle things without you here. I don't know how it will ever get better. I just hope it's sometime soon. I try to close my eyes and picture how happy you must be up there now. But my broken heart wants so bad to be with you all again. Each day seems to get harder instead of easier. But I know you're watching over me and I only wish you were here so I can tell you face to face about the bus driver position. Everything seems to be falling into place. But no one wanted this more for me than you. I got the notice less than 2 weeks after your funeral. But I just felt I couldn't be happy about it. It hurts dad, it's slowly killing me. I went from having a big family, to literally almost none. I love you so much Daddy...Yesterday, today,tomorrow, always. ..