Hi daddy I miss u so much e dry single day. To say that I dont get mad at u sometimes for leaving would be a lie. Because I feel that it was something that could have been prevented but again this is just speculation because I don't have any answers what so ever. It helps that I have some people to talk to but I still cant talk about what happened without breaking down. I do believe that if it wasn't for David God only knows where I would be. That little boy is my rock. I believe he is my gift because God knew what was in store for me and that I would need someone to give me the strength to lush forward in life. I just wish that u would come to me daddy. Tell me that u know I did everything I could and I abided. By your wishes and that there was nothing elsei could do. I didn't give ul on u. Come to me and tell me that ur okay. I never got to verbally hear u say it and I just want to hear u say u love me just one last time. Ur verylastwordz weremy name. Janine Marie janine Marie please getme the black blanket. I never got to. Got to hear u after that. Sometimes. I feel like a failure because I didn't save u. Just so many unanswered questions please daddy come to me. I love u so much. Love u yesterday. Today tomorrow always....