My life is about to change in a few hours. But daddy I'm so scared and I know it's not how you want me to feel but I don't want to do it without you. I keep running away from things in search of comfort. In search of you. I drove all the way upstate today just to try to find the solace I was seeking but all it did was make me miss you more. Why is life so unfair? Why couldn't I get to watch you and mommy grow old together here with me? Why was I left alone? I don't have the faith in myself that everyone else seems to have in me. I second guess myself in everything and constantly looking for approval. You used to be able to calm my fears all the time. I'm at war with myself all the time. Please daddy comfort me tonight and let me feel you and mommy with me tomorrow. I love you yesterday today tomorrow always ....